THE BEST PLAN

How do you feel if you never get things that you really want? It’s a bit annoying, actually, but that’s how I feel about this life. Sometimes I thought that I was a kind of person who knew exactly what I really wanted, such as to which school I wanted to study, but I was wrong.

I used to think that my choice is the best choice in life. And because of this “wrong independent thought”, I had to make many times of adjustments. What kind of adjustment? Well, when I entered my senior high school, I remembered that I came there with low low motivation. Why? Because It was not the one I wanted. I had to arrange my feeling every time I went to school, and it took about 6 months for me to realized that I was there not by coincidence, but by a plan that only God who knew.

It happened again when I wanted to go to university. I was planning to enter one of the universities in my city right after graduating from senior high school. But God set another plan. My parents had no money to bring me in, that’s why I had to find it by my own (it means that I have to work first to get some money for college) and it took three years for me to have them. In the fourth year I knew that I could not enter public university since I’d missed the proper years to join the submission test. Finally, I went to a private college not for from my house.

The college where I studied used to be a quite popular college (with its major faculty), but a year before I entered, there was a problem inside the foundation and a huge demonstration could not be avoided. Because of this problem, there were only two classes in the first year, in my year.

What could I say then? I felt like I was in the wrong place and at the wrong time. I said that because I still did not know what His plan for me, and I started to realize it when I was in the second semester.

Because there were not many students, the lecturers were more focused on us and I had less difficulty in earning good score in almost every class. It also influenced the dean’s consideration in giving scholarship. In short, I could get finance aid until I graduated and had more chance to deepen my knowledge through several competitions. And the best thing of all, I could also know good new friends in God. In conclusion, I finally knew what’s God plan for me.

We might think that we know everything, that we know what’s the best for us, but trust me, God’s plans is far more better compared to our plans. What we have to do is being patient until He reveals those plans. You may not trust me, but you absolutely can trust Him.