GOD OF BLESSING

I've got a new enlightenment when I entered this year. God gave me a new way to start a new job by being an entrepreneur. Not only that, He also gave me this yearly verse: The blessing of the LORD brings wealth, and he adds no trouble to it (Pro. 10:22).

At first, I didn't know why I got the verse. My friend who helped me to find the idea of homeworking thought that it must have something to do with my job. I tried to figure out what's the point behind it. I thought I was going to get what I wanted through this new job. But, we almost enter the fourth month, yet I still haven't got what I've expected.

I prayed and asked God to show me the meaning behind the verse. I always expect that it's connected with my homeworking job. I dreamt and hoped a new income from it. (It was because I knew that I would never got enough income from my other jobs. That's why I worked it enthusiastically.) But He shows me something else. Something I've never expected or imagined or thought. By April 1st, He entrusts me a new and better position in my old job.

All this time I thought if I worked harder, I would get what I wanted. I almost forgot that all blessings come from heaven. We can do everything, but God's favor decides whether we deserve to receive the blessing or not.

I will not stop doing my new job, but now I'm doing it with different purpose. I believe that God will bless me and give me the feeling of enough by ways I may never imagine or expect or think of. God is the God of blessings.

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THERE IS SOMETHING

There is something in His love
that I can never understand
There is something behind His deeds
that I can never comprehend

How many words to take
to tell about His love
How many lives to live
to witness His amazing deeds

Even if seas turns into ink
and sky turns into paper
it weren't enough to tell about His love
till seas run dry and sky becomes full

I admire Him in everything He does
I adore Him in everything He says
for He has loved me with amazing love
for He has touched me with forgiving pray

There is something in His love
that I can never understand
There is something behind His deeds
that I can never comprehend

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LIFE

Full of grace, full of mercy
Full of joy, full of glory
Every day You've given to me
is an expression of love and blessing

Full of tears, full of sorrow
Full of challenges, full of failures
Even though I have to face them
Your promises ensure me about future

Most of the time I don't understand
what kind of life waiting ahead
but one thing I know worth to stand
words of Your mouth will always have led

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SAD CLOWN

There was a clown at a park. Its funny face made every child who saw it laughed. Its funny style made every person who passed by smiled. Of course, that is what a clown do, to make other people happy. Of course, that was what this clown tried to do, to make other people joyful.

After working, the clown went to a public rest room to change and clean his make up. He was very different without his costume and make up. He looked so sad. When he went out, a father and his daughter approached him. Without recognizing the man, the father asked, "Excuse me, Sir. Do you see a clown around this park? My daughter really wants to meet him and see his attraction." With a tired and full of burden face, the man answered, "I am the clown."

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True joy and happiness can only be seen in its nature, purity, heavenly nature. People can tell others that they are joyful, that they are happy, but it won't last forever; it will be easily gone when trouble and problem comes. Even a clown can hide his sadness through costume and make up, but that is not the real joy and happiness.

God wants us to be joyful always, no matter what our condition is. See... He wants "always/eternal/everlasting" joy, not the fake one. Such kind of joy (everlasting joy) can not be made up. Such kind of joy can only be gained from God.

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PLEASING WORDS

"I'm proud of you!" It is the most unforgettable sentence which was ever said by my brother. I am grateful that I knew him.

Well, actually the one I call my brother isn't my real brother. He was my sponsor. I have known him since I was in junior high school. He helped me in my education for several years. And during that years, we wrote to each other. The sentence above was repeated in almost all of his letters. "I'm proud of you!"

I was not always be a good child, I didn't always make a good score at school, but the sentence was never forgotten to write. And each time I received or read his letter, I always thought that I am loved and appreciated. Through his letters I found my strength, a will to be someone better. Through his letters I know I can face the world.

Good words can truly bless the hearer, the reader. It can even change someone's life. If I didn't know my sponsor, I think I would be someone worse than now.

Have you spoken pleasant words today? You will never know it, but your word might save someone's life.

Dear God, bless my mouth, my tongue, and every word coming out of it. I want to be Your blessing channel, saying all blessing changing effective words. Help me, God. Amen

Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.

Pro. 16:24

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THE REAL SALT AND LIGHT

Be the salt and the light of the world!

Salt makes food salty, tasty. Light makes a place seen, clear, brighter. Salt keeps away tastelessness. Light keeps away darkness. Salt is meaningless to sea, salty things. Light is meaningless to bright places.

Both salt and light has a great influence over things it touches. Yet, it has no meaning among its kind. So, be the salt and the light for the needing people, at the needing places.

Someone ever said that most Christians who are born and raised and surrounded by Christians give a very minimum contribution in the world of evangelism. Why? Because all they see are people who do not need to be saved anymore. They should go outside, to the world, so that they can be the real salt and light for those who really need it.

Now, be the real salt and light that is highly effective and efficient for the hunger world.

Dear Father in heaven, use me as Your salt and light. I want to be the useful, the real salt and light, but I don't know where to start. Show me how to change a taste and replace a darkness in the heart of those who need You. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.

Mat. 5:13-14

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THE BEST

Everyday we try to do our best. We work for the best result and our goal is perfectness. It's good, and even a very good thing to do. But, whom are those things for?

We live among people, who know God and do not know God. Have we pay attention that they who do not know God, our God, also do good things, even things better than what Christians do? We have to admit that sometimes they do better than us in terms of doing God's words. But how come? They don't even know our bible and don't even trust our God!

We stay in a world where Christianity are demanded to show who is Jesus Christ. People can do things we do, but the clear difference between them and us is that we do things for the name of God, in the name of Jesus Christ, for the sake of Holy Spirit (not for ourselves). That's why Paul reminds us to do everything as for God, not for men.

But, what's its difference with we, Christians, doing best things? When we do best, it is stop on our standard. No matter how high that standard, it is still far from God's. But when we do things for God, we will do best things over best things we usually do. Why? Because the purpose of our deeds are not ourselves, but God of all created things.

We are children of God of BEST THINGS!!!

Dear God, now I know my purpose of life, that is to do best of the best. I need Your interference over my life. Please remind it to me, always. I love You, God. Amen

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men,

Col. 3:23

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SMILE!!!

People often think that the greatest gifts are the expensive and rare ones, but I don't think so. We can always give priceless gift at all days in our life. What is that? It is smile. Smile is the easiest and cheapest kindness we can give to others. Believe it or not, but smile can even transform hatred into love.

There are two people who live as neighbors. Their houses are not too far but they haven't known each other. One of them is a christian who loves to go to church, and each time she goes to church, she will pass her neighbor's house.

Without obvious reason, her neighbor didn't like her. It was expressed every time they met. The neighbor would always give a strange look and a way face. This christian never dared to ask why her neighbor did so. All she did was praying and asking God what should she do. One day she woke up with something in her mind. She decided to smile. She thought that smiling was a free and positive thing to do and she believed that it would make her neighbor's attitude changed over her.

Since that day, this christian always smiles to the neighbor. It didn't show any positive result at first, but in the next days, she finds that her strategy works, her neighbor starts to smile too. Now, they have a good relationship.

We can be God's hand in order to bless people through little things. You don't have to do dramatic or awesome things to attract them; just do something simple, as smiling.

Smile and the world will smile with you.

The world can't always make you smile,

but each time you smile, the world will also smile.

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P.U.S.H

I notice something common in some Christian conversation. It appears each time they talk about their plan, their problem, or their struggle. What is that? It is the term of, "... at least, pray."

Prayer sometimes refers to last attempt in dealing with things. "At least, pray" gives a connotation that prayer is the minimal effort when people still have no clue about other things to do. Well, ironically, prayer is the most powerful way among many powerful ways to solve problems.

P.U.S.H (Pray Until Something Happens) is supposed to be the first thing that comes to mind at every situation. I can not guarantee that every prayer will come true, but God can guarantee that endless prayer will be heard, and when it is made based on God's will, it will take its form, REALITY.

You can list hundreds ways to solve your problems, but make prayer as the first solution. And if you can only find prayer as the only solution, don't worry, it is more than enough. Prayer is more than enough; it's just, don't stop doing it, for its effect equals to billions solutions.

Dear God, I come before You with all I am. I bring You my life, my plan, my future, my problems. Help me to live it, God, since I have no more power and clue to face it. I know that You hear prayers, that's why I won't stop praying. In the name of Jesus Christ, my prayer hearer, Amen.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. 

Jas. 5:16

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JUST BELIEVE!

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There can be miracle when you believe

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill

There can be miracle you can achieve

When you believe somehow you will

You will when You believe

This chorus must have been very familiar in your ears. Yes, it is from "When You Believe" popularized by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston. This song has given a great influence all over the world, including me. It spreads the possibility in having faith in something, that miracle can do happen.

Having faith in something is not as easy as saying the word, especially when you can not see what you have to believe. I sometimes get difficult to believe my friend when he says that he's going to pay all his debt to me. Ha...just kidding. The point is, we often can't trust things we meet everyday, we see with our own eyes, we touch with our own hands... and now we are demanded to believe in things we can't meet everyday, we can't see with our own eyes, we can't touch with our own hands? It's certainly a very hard thing to do.

After Jesus passed away, Thomas and the other disciples were terrified and hopeless. They didn't know what to do, they even forgot when Jesus said that He would live again on the third day. Why? Because they couldn't find Him beside them, because He didn't speak to encourage them anymore, because without His presence, it was hard for them to trust Him. No wonder Jesus allowed Thomas to touch Him when He suddenly appeared among them; He wanted Thomas to make sure that his heart (his faith) didn't fail him. But, what did Jesus say to all of them? "...blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

Jesus wants us to understand that everything in Him is beyond our imagination and expectation. And since we're still living in this perishable world, He teaches us to believe Him although we can't see or touch Him. Our God is able to do everything, but all the He asks from us is faith; that is the only way so that "the beyond things" come to our life.

Do you have problem with your health? Do you have problem with your family? Do you have problem with your future? I can't give you way out, but He can. All you have to do is believe. Miracle can happen, as long as you believe.

Dear God, give me faith. I really don't know what to do now. All that I have is You. Thank you for the freedom that You give. Thank you for that the solution that You make. Thank you for the answer. Even though I can't see it right now, I believe that You have worked it for me. In the name of Jesus, the only answer that I need, Amen.

Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

John 20:29

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SACRIFICE

That girl was laid there, didn't move, didn't blink. She didn't know where she was, she didn't realize what's happening to her. She just stared at the sky.

She felt that she laid on something cold, something wet, something hard for her back skin. The wind breezed around her, touched her chicks and turned them cold. She tried to move her hand. It's difficult at first, but when she made it, she felt dirt, she felt soil.

She saw to the left and to the right, but she still didn't remember what had happened. She moved her body, tried to wake up. She felt dizzy, but she kept trying to understand the situation. She stood.

Not far from her, she saw her bike, broken, with no more form. She saw an old man, lying, not moving on the road side. She walked to him, but she suddenly realized that her right knee was bleeding. Ignoring the pain, she stepped closer.

She found him badly injured. She wanted to shout for help, but she found no one around her. She remembered that she had ridden her bike too far from her house to the hill next to the district. She remembered yelling to her mother because she didn't give her the doll she wanted. She paddled her bike with anger until she was almost out of her small town. She saw the image of the man in front of her, pushed her avoiding the main road to stay away of something. She tried hard to remember what it was, but she couldn't remember a thing about it.

The man had actually saved her from being crashed by a truck. The girl was riding too far until she didn't realize a truck behind her. The man didn't know the girl, neither did she, but he didn't had a choice. The only way to save her was by hitting himself to the girl, pushed her away of the road, while he might be the one who got hit by the truck. And it did happen. The man sacrificed his life for the girl.

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God is just like the man. He sacrificed His life for us. No matter what fault we've made, He didn't thought another way but saving us, rescuing us, for that is the only way that we keep alive.

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WEAK LOVE

There was a woman who was falling in love. She loved her boyfriend so much, and she believed that someday they would unite as husband and wife. The man also felt the same thing for his girlfriend, until he decided to propose the woman to marry him. And, as what we've guessed, his proposal was accepted.

These couple had a very happy marriage. They filled their first years of togetherness by saying love to each other, sending gifts to each other at every special occasion, and other things a new couple usually do. Until that time came, time when those beautiful moments gradually disappeared. They started to get difficult to meet or communicate, because they were busy with their own activities. Finally, they felt that their love for each other had dimmed.

They decided to get divorce for they thought that it was the best solution for the cold love between them. They gave up on the marriage they'd been longing since they made a relationship. They forgot why they love each other so that they could easily end the love. They chose to fail their own promise at the altar. What a poor love, what a weak love.

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We often hear how couples could easily marry, divorce, and remarry. We can never understand what's behind their doing since they have a lot of reasons to do so. But again, we are children in God; we will remember His Words that they who are united in Him can not be separated by men. These words are obvious enough in its meaning about how sacred and pure a marriage is. They who respect a marriage, will try to defend it no matter how hard it is. We can reason that our couple is no longer worth to call couple (husband and wife) for they have done painful things, terrible things. But, it should make us, children of God, to be more aware in finding our couple. Find the one who loves God and ask Him to show us the sign that they we love are really meant for us. It also should make us, children of God, surrender to God more than ever that we can't maintain our marriages by our own strength.

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UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

You love me for the way I am
You accept me for whatever I am
You never reject me for my weakness
You always welcome me with open arms

Your unconditional love has filled me
made me precious and worth to love
I've never met someone like You
who is so beautiful in the way You are

God, I'm so grateful to have You
I'm so blessed to know You
With You only I want to spend my days
You're the one I want, no other

Lots of songs I will offer before Your throne
I will fill Your house with adoration
Psalms of praise will come up from my room
every second, every minute, forever

God, thank you for the unconditional love
I think I can never be able to repay You
not in this life, not even in eternity
But allow me to love You with all I am

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THE MAN AND HIS WIFE

A man worked as a teacher in a remote area. He decided to become a teacher because he loved kids and he wanted to share his knowledge to children in such areas. His dream was to produce children who could lift their village through their knowledge learned at school. He lived with her wife and she supported him in everything he did, including becoming a teacher.

The school where he taught was far from his house. How did he go there everyday? He would walk for several miles through woods, fields, and small river for there were no public transportation there. When it was rainy season, he would face muddied and slippery road, and bigger flow of the river. The school was also a very ordinary school where he worked almost all of the school stuff by himself. He cleaned, he painted, he fixed the roof, he prepared the school materials, and many more. But, he did it earnestly, because he believed that someday his students would succeed.

One day, because of being too tired, the man got sick. He was paralyzed. He couldn't walk or go to school, and he was so sad knowing that he couldn't teach anymore. Seeing his husband wished to teach again badly, she wanted to do something for him. She then carried the man on her back, to and from school, and she did it everyday without complaining.

The man taught again, but he couldn't help seeing his wife did things like that everyday. She woke up earlier, prepared everything for the family, yet she still had to carry him to school. Finally, the man had a plan to make her wife asked for a divorce. He was angry all the time without obvious reasons. His wife was upset, and clearly triggered to be angry too. She then agreed for her husband request for a divorce. But, beyond his imagination, his ex wife didn't let him just like that. She kept carrying him to and from school everyday.

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This story is truly inspiring. A man with his dedication and a woman with her loyalty; two things that are definitely hard to find these days. If people know one thing called love, they should see dedication and loyalty too in it, because love is not love without these two things.

We also have the most perfect example of dedication and loyalty, it is Jesus. And His story is the most inspiring story in eternity. Let's us learn about love, dedication, and loyalty from Him.

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PURE HEART

Having a pure heart is a very difficult thing to do. You have to be used to thing I call sacrifice. Someone can sacrifice things for others, but he might not have a pure heart. But the pure heart will never spent their time without sacrificing things for other people.

I had an appointment with my friends this evening. The place where we should meet was quite far from my house. My friends have their own motorcycle, but I haven't, and it makes me find difficulties to go to certain or far places. I didn't mind going by myself, taking the public transportation. But I had to go earlier than them because the public transportation around my place isn't as much as in other areas. If I ask you to calculate my expense for one day trip using public transportation, it will be enough for three days trips using motorcycle.

Arriving at the place, some of my friends borrowed some money from me. I wouldn't mind giving them the money, because I knew that they really needed it at that time. Besides, I also thought that I still have enough money to go home. Time moved on and it was getting late. When our activity ended, and I went home by taking public transportation, I realized that I didn't have enough money to take another transportation to get home. I stopped at the closest place to my house district, but I still had to walk for about 20 minutes to get home. No wonder, I was tired.

Without realizing it, I was suddenly filled with disappointment over my friends. "Why didn't they understand me or even try to help me?" This mind blinded me from God's voice. Thankfully, I prayed... It was the moment when God renewed my power and my heart. He thanked me for being independence and for being so kind that day. He said that I've done a good thing and that He appreciated it. He reminded me, deep inside me heart, that I had to learn to have a pure heart. He said it was not easy, but it was worth fighting, because He loved the pure heart.

When I said, "He (God) said...", it was not literal thing, but I knew I was right, I heard His voice through the Holy Spirit, I wrote His words through the Bible that He loves the pure heart. You may have also experienced times when you should sacrifice things, and it seems like you are the unlucky ones, but notice this, God know what you've done and He appreciates it. Don't contaminate it with complaint or grumble. Let's learn to have a pure heart, because that is what He wants.

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SHOW YOUR LOVE

Today ran just like the other days. I woke up in the morning to prepare everything for my family. I cleaned the house, I cooked, I took a bath and had breakfast... nothing's special actually. Until I spent a little time to walk in front of my house and stood at the gate. That was time when I saw a young woman walked from the western side of our district nakedly.

I didn't know what happened to her but I was a little bit shocked to see her walking along the street like that. A lot of people were just staring at her, talking and whispering about her, but no one wanted to approach her or helped her. I am a woman, and watching her walking that way along the district without  help, my heart was suddenly filled with compassion.

I walked to her and asked her to go into my house. I gave her my daughter's T-shirt and short pants. I asked her name and what she was doing on the street, but she answered me with unclear answers. That was when I know that she was mentally ill.

I couldn't get any definite clue about who she was and what had happened to her, but from her physical body I thought she was pregnant. I wished I could help her more at that time but I knew I couldn't. I called local social department and they sent me a car to pick up the woman. They told me that they will look after her for a moment until she was better and they had a clue about her family.

This incident made me think... how come those people around the neighborhood just watched her without doing nothing? What if it were their mother, their sister, or their daughter who might be wandering on the street like that? In my point of view, these people have lost their compassion.

God says that we, Christians, should live with love one another. We should speak to people out there, implicitly or explicitly, that we have Christ in us, that we have God of love lives in us. It may be difficult to express His unconditional love because our life is surrounded by conditions. We don't want to be different for being different is uncommon thing before men; they will speak negatively about us, they will reject us, they will hate us. But again my brother and sister in God, What Would Jesus Do in such condition? I believe that He will put aside people's thought about Him and do what He thinks He should do. Go and show God's love to the world.

Father in heaven, forgive me for being too afraid to show the world that I am a Christian. I'm still unperfect in my love to You. That's why I pray, God... help me to do Your will, to show the world about Your love, without feeling afraid by being different.

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.

Eph. 4:2

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CALL ME

"Hello...?? I can't hear you... P P Please say it again! I I can't he..hear yo..u!!" (bbhruaer bhgruayck kakd....biiiiiiiiipp)

Obviously... our phone doesn't always run well, does it?

One thing why I love to be a christian is how free I am to call God, Father. That word makes me feel very close to Him. That word makes me always want to call Him. That word makes me very blessed to have someone as a father like Him.

Our cell phone delimits our call on places. What is the evidence? It's very difficult for us to make a contact to someone on the sea, right? But our prayer will never be delimited. God will hear our prayer without any difficulty. Our words will move straight above to His presence without any signal interference. That makes His presence so close to us; He is only as far as our prayer.

So does God... He always be able to contact us. He will tell His secret to us; nothing will be hidden. Isn't it lovely? To talk at anytime, anywhere, with God the host of the universe?

Just be careful, because there is one thing that can block our communication with Him, our sin. When we have settled this problem, there is nothing to worry about. Our heavenly phone will run more than well. All we have to remember is to have a pure life, then we or God will be very easy to say, "Call me" or "Call ME".

God, please call me everyday, every time. I want to hear Your voice for the whole of my life. Thank you for making me Your child so that I can call You, Father, every time I want to. Then, Father, thank you. Amen

The LORD is far from the wicked but he hears the prayer of the righteous.

 Proverb 15:29

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I LOVE ME

If I ask you this question, "If you have a choice, what part of your body that you want to replace? Why don't you like them or why do you want to replace them?" what is your answer?

"I want to replace my eyes. I am slant-eyed and I don't like it. I want to have bigger and rounder eyes."

"I don't like my legs. I think they are too short. I want to replace them with longer legs so I can be taller than I'm now."

"I think I hate my face. No one considers me pretty. That's why I want to replace it and have a more beautiful face. I will have a surgery to make myself prettier, then no one will think that I'm ugly anymore."

Let's see the phenomena happening in these modern days. More people want to be like other people. The straight hair want to be the curly hair. On the contrary, the curly hair will have their hair smoothed. The darker skin want to be the white skin. While the white skin tanned their skin under the sun. Huft... what a confusing world.

It's okay to have a new look, it sometimes can refresh our mind. But, try to love yourself for whatever you are. Does God say that each of us is precious before Him? Does He say that His creation, us, is a perfect creation? Some people even think that when God creates us, He will destroy our blueprint as soon as we are created. It means that no one compares to us. We are the only we in this universe. You are the only you in this universe. Can you imagine that?

Accepting our self is one way to show our gratitude to God. God never forbid us to take care of our body, but he doesn't want us to take care of it for other purposes beside truth, His truth. Besides, our body isn't eternal. Now I urge you to love yourself the way you are, because you are precious before God's eyes.

God, thank you for making me the way I am. I realize that I'm not perfect, my physical body may be not perfect, but I want accept it, God. Help me to gain Your plan in me with this body. In the name of Jesus Christ, my perfect Creator, Amen.

Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to him as instruments of righteousness.

Rom. 6:13

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LOVE IN A WALLET

Do you have a wallet? I believe that most of you do have it. Does it have a picture/photo pocket? I'm sure it does, and I'm sure you've used it, haven't you? Well, whose photo is the one in your wallet, especially in the front one? I solemnly think that it is someone very important to you, isn't it?

It's a very common thing when someone keeps somebody's picture (or maybe something's picture) inside of his wallet. It probably the picture of his wive, her husband, his family, his children, his girlfriend, or perhaps, his pet, his house, his own picture... Whoever or whatever picture in it, it somehow reflects someone's love for the person/thing in the picture. By doing so, someone also wants to keep connected to the one in the picture, although they are away apart.

Our heart is just like the wallet, we keep important things inside (our treasure, our longing/dreams, our loved ones). Because we always have the wallet with us, we know we can keep our loved ones' picture in it. The question is, whose picture is it?

My friend and teacher once said, "When someone hasn't got a girlfriend, he keeps his family's picture in his wallet. But wait until he gets a girlfriend. I'm sure he'll replace the picture with her girlfriend's (or at least put the old one behind the new one."

Well, it does make sense now. If we think that God is the important one for us, we'll keep His image in our heart. And if someone/something else steals that priority, the Image is replaced. God is no longer the important one, but someone/something else.

We know that God always wants to be the only one for us, but it is our choice to make Him the one or not. If He weren't God of love, I believe that He would force us to make Him the one. But no... He doesn't do it. He gives us a free will to choose Him and the world, because He loves us. Even when we don't choose Him, He waits us to do it, when we have realize His importance in our love. Now, will us keep His picture in our "wallet"?

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BETTER

I had to bring some stuff to my office today, but that wasn't the problem. I have a little "worry" each time I have to bring some stuff to some places by public transportation. I don't judge that the transportation is bad or uncomfortable, it's the people who sometimes make me uncomfortable.

I often find unpleasing passengers during my way. They who keep the seat for themselves. They who waste space while other people are struggling to sit. They who don't want to help other who are stranger to them. They who choose to stay in their comfort zone and never want to give their place for others who deserve or need it more. They who drive the public transportation with carelessness, traffic violation. Can you imagine what will happen to me when I have to meet such a person while I have to bring a lot of things? But it didn't happen to me today for I met a very nice grandfather.

When I stopped a car, I knew from a far that the car was almost full. But I chose to believe that the transportation would have one place to sit for me. The car stopped before me and suddenly someone got down and said that I could use his seat. I was a little bit surprised when I knew that the person was an old man. As far as I know, the young should put the old before them.

I couldn't say anything to the man for the car was so crowded. But I'm very thankful to God that I can still meet a person like him. I hope that I can find more people like him. They who don't act selfishly but put others before themselves. They who don't differentiate stranger or not stranger in order to find those deserving their kindness. I can imagine a very nice public transportation with people like that around. I an imagine a better world with people like that around.

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NO LONGER I AM

It happened again. What a "testing" day! Since I woke up in the morning, my heart was filled with worries. I have stayed awake for a whole night, but I couldn't finish my job. There is a great burden in my heart, "How can I finish all these tasks?"

But it was my fault. I let the worry controlled me. All that I'd been thinking about was that I have to solve them all, today. I forgot that I'm not a super woman who can do anything.

Thank God, in the middle of working on those stuffs, I stopped and decided to pray. I said, "God, I've been through days like this with great effort, my own effort. And the result was, I was terribly exhausted. God, I don't know what will happen today, but allow me to surrender all in me to You. Please, accept me. Help me to make the best out of me, today. Help me to finish my part, today. In the name of Jesus, Amen."

After praying, I felt calmer. Next thing I knew was I did what I should do, I did what I could do. I also felt that God opened my heart wider than before. I accepted things that didn't run according to my will. I saw the goodness of others more than the previous. And in such situation, I could feel that He wanted me to keep being generous to others. The truth is I am no longer I am when I give everything in His mighty hands.

Try it!!!

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