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I often forget who I really am I think that I'm nothing like others I often consider that I'm weak and fragile that I don't deserve for loves When I look back and see all the things behind, my past darkness and shadow lies like no one ever imagines When I open my eyes try to notice what's ahead of me I can no longer feel safe for another darkness and shadow haunts My eyes are closed My lips...

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THE RIGHT "SUCCESSFUL" PERSON

A few hours ago a girl named Elis asked me to help her to do her homework. She said that she needed an informant to be interviewed for social class paper, with "successful person" as the theme. This eight year girl came to me with a thought in her mind that I was a successful woman and deserving to be the right resource person. She astounded me without knowing it. Why? Because I thought I wasn't...

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MOM, THANK YOU

I've been searching for a very long time the presence of the most ideal friend I've sought it among millions of men yet my journey ended up with nothing I've imagined someone so perfect someone who can understand me I've waited for someone so great someone who knows how to accept me God knows my effort God knows my prayer but I can't find it somehow wherever I'm looking for Then suddenly I...

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CAN'T BE REPEATED

This evening me and two of my friends recorded dance movements that we have practiced all these years. We decided to make them so that we could see them in case we've forgotten them. You know? It was the first time for me to be involved in such "filming". I could see that three of us did enjoy the moment. My friend acted as if she were a director (The fact was she was just a camera girl....

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HOPE

"Oh, God... what's going on with today? Everything doesn't go right. Is there something wrong with me? Are You punishing me, or just testing me? Do You hate me???? AAAHHHHhhhh..." That day was truly truly truly tiring day. I think it was the most tiring day in my life. Can you imagine? I woke up late. I forgot several things to prepare the last day. My motorbike suddenly failed. The computer...

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NOT ALONE

Today was really a tiring day. I had a lot of things to do because we're going to have a tournament tomorrow. We, me and my team, had prepared our job descriptions, and I'm responsible for cooking class (my little plan was making a little Masterchef Junior competition). I have planned everything for the last several days. I listed all my needs, ranked things according to its priority, wrote...

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WHEN THE SKY FALLS

When I'm losing hope and worries attack it is the time when I can't see You When uncertainty comes and fear bounds it is the moment when I can't feel You My mind plays trick on me and everything seems useless and vain I really do not know what to do since the whole world becomes ruin around me God, what should I do? God, what should I do? I can't see the bright future anymore I can't believe...

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POWER OVER OURS

Last month our refrigerator was broken. We didn’t know what’s going on, it suddenly didn’t worked. That refrigerator has been with us for years, and we were very helped with it. Some food that we sell at the shop was kept there so that it remained fresh. We didn’t have money to buy the new one. We also didn’t have enough money to service it, since the cost was...

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RENEWED MIND

My friend asked me once, “Why do you think we still have to put salt when we cook sea fish? Even though living in salty water, why are they not salty?” I didn’t give a direct answer at that time, because something else had come into my head. I could have given a short answer that sea fish’s “body” is designed to filter the salty water in order to get water it needs,...

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DO WHAT HE SAYS

If I have to choose the best time in life, then I will choose junior high school years. I met a lot of friends and experienced a lot of fun. But when I think it over, how can I be so relaxed during that years? And the answer is that I didn’t have to think about what would I eat, what would I wear, how could I earn some money? In conclusion, I only have to enjoy my schooling...

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BLESSING TITHE

I have learned to give tithe since I was in senior high school, and I thank to my parents who have taught me well enough about giving tithe to God. Every time I want to give, I am always reminded about how important it is to give back what is supposed to be God’s. It is not as easy as it looks to give to God, because my logic sometimes tries to rule over me. I realize...

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